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Danielle

Posted in Hope, Love, Spirituality with tags , , , , , , on June 14, 2013 by TaijituMartini

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“I see incredible beauty in humanity, only most of it is unfulfilled potential, hidden under the superficial”

~Danielle Mayeur~

Danielle Mayeur was a beautiful girl who died young, before she had a chance to truly live. She was twenty-five when she passed away of anorexia in 2001. Sexually assaulted at 17, she lost the will to eat and waited three long years on a waiting list before she was admitted to a day program for support. After only three months in the program, she was released only to find out there was no follow-up support available, mainly due to lack of funding. Her struggle was just too much to bear. Before her death, she had a vision to build compassionate services for those suffering with eating disorders. With her mothers dedication and a network of caring friends her vision was realized after her death. Today there’s a special place where hope and healing happen everyday. A place where there is no judgement, where there is constant support and people who selflessly dedicate their time and effort to make a difference in the lives of others. See, there is good in the world after all. When I read her story I was instantly compelled to be a part of this place. Maybe it was because she was an actress and I have always been a part of the theatre world. Maybe it was because I was sexually assaulted as a teenager and understood her pain. Maybe it was because my own past vices were drinking and drugs to cure that very pain, at one point rapidly heading towards the same fate myself. Maybe it was because I wanted to help those that couldn’t find the strength to help themselves. Maybe it was because over the years I managed to turn my own life around and now have a deep understanding of the immense power of healing. Maybe it was because I could lend a patient ear to those who needed to be heard. Maybe it was because I could use my passion for the written word to bring attention to the cause. Whatever it was, I reached out to offer my help and continue to be amazed at all the wondrous things that have unfolded since. I know I am connected to this special place for many reasons. I work there because it is a part of my legend, something I promised I would do once, a long time ago, as I fought desperately for my own life. Everything is connected, remember? Quantum connectivity and all that jazz. Back it up a bit. In 2005 I was 30 years old, and my brain was being savagely ravaged by viral encephalitis, and I was dying. Leave it up to me to be in the less than 1% of the population to get encephalitis from the West Nile Virus. West Nile Neuroinvasive Disease or WNND to be exact. I was leaving this earth, and I didn’t want to go. I had a lot more to do here. So I earnestly promised something to the other side, and lucky for me that day- They listened. That’s a hell of a tale, maybe I’ll tell you all about that little Near Death Experience in my next post…

I still have the chance to rant about all my absurd adventures. Danielle wasn’t so lucky. Thankfully her voice can continue with mine, and all the people who are connected to her story. I am somehow a minute part of her legend, and that entanglement feels like an extremely important role. She once got the lead in a festival play but was just too sick to perform.

This one’s for you Danielle.

Live Your Dream

Posted in Clairvoyance, Hope, Love, Spirituality with tags , , , , on June 12, 2013 by TaijituMartini

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When we discover our legend, what it is that we are truly meant to do on this earth, everything else pales in comparison. It’s the very heart of our soul, recognizing our life journey and guiding us along our authentic path. Dream it. Think it. Live it.

“I don’t want my thoughts to die with me, I want to have done something. I’m not interested in power or piles of money. I want to leave something behind. I want to make a positive contribution – know that my life has meaning.”
Temple Grandin

Pandoras Box

Posted in Clairvoyance with tags , , on June 11, 2013 by TaijituMartini

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Everything is connected. Quantum entanglement is everywhere. You can often recognize the obvious connections but many times the subtlety of the entanglement is almost invisible and gets lost in the complex movements of the Universe.

Sometimes you’re lucky enough to catch it.

There I was. Minding my own business, enjoying the last bites of dinner at a ritzy restaurant, long-lost family members thrown together on all sides, laughing over wine-induced memories and an array of crazy idiocies from the past. Then it happened. Out of the blue my mother starts talking about Tim Bosma. She doesn’t know anything about my blog or the fact that I have been psychically connected to Tim’s story since May 6th. She tells us that she was once close to Dellen Millards father Wayne, whos mother Della was friends with my grandmother. When Waynes mother Della died, Wayne told my mother that he was going to have a baby and name the child after his mother. That’s how Dellen got his name. Soon after Dellen was born, Wayne brought him over to my house for a visit and I bounced a chubby Dellen Millard on my lap.

When I brought up the fact that Dellen was also being investigated for his fathers murder, my mother said, “Wayne was a pilot. He would never have shot himself in the eye.”

At that very moment she looked sad and the conversation ended. That was that. A moment where time and space collided, where across a table a mother and child connected ever so briefly over a common emotion, a Universal force that has touched us both in our own ways. My mother has witnessed my clairvoyance a million times but would rather change the topic. She knows it’s there but chooses to ignore it. She fears what she doesn’t understand. At that very moment a thought crossed my mind. I could reach out and say, “I started a blog mom and most of my posts have been focused on Tim since May 6th. I described the secluded farmland where Tim’s body would be found long before if came out on the news. I knew about the older style blue car involved in the case days before the picture was released. I picked up on information about the second suspect Mark Smich’s neighbour Fred before his name appeared on the news. I know they are still looking for someone because there are three people involved and they only have two…”

I don’t speak. I never say anything. It’s always been my private journey. I’ve lived my entire life that way and I’m comfortable as a mute.  Tim’s story has touched my life so deeply that I can’t rest until the puzzle pieces are all put together and justice is served. I wonder if my mother will ever find the strength to accept what she doesn’t understand? One day maybe.  Until then we will continue to live our separate existences.

 So very connected and yet so very far apart. That’s quantum entanglement for you.