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O Captain My Captain

Posted in Activist, Beauty, Faith, Gratitude, History, Humour, LGBT Community, Love, Nostalgia, Passion, Poetry, Spirituality, Wisdom, Writing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 12, 2014 by TaijituMartini


“You’re only given one little spark of madness. You musn’t lose it.”
-Robin Williams

So true My Captain. Can I call you that? I hope you don’t mind. I never knew you, but I always felt like I did.
I felt connected to you. Perhaps it was your small stature. I happen to be wee myself. Maybe it was your contagious laughter, your great comedic timing, your humble views on life and love. Whatever it was that connected us in this vast Universe-you enriched my life. Thank-you for that.
Your heart was big My Captain. I felt that-and I’m not the only one. It seems whoever knew you loved you.
A special soul you were.
As John Keating in Dead Poets Society you opened my eyes to the possibility of looking at life from a different perspective. Stand on your desk and shout out your mantra to the world. Booya Keating. That’s the way to do it. Life’s too short for bullshit.
You encouraged me to “carpe diem”, a motto I have leaned on throughout my adult life.
Your performance as Parry in The Fisher King swept me away to another world and turned me into a two hour human waterfall. What a movie.
Armand in The Birdcage- another classic. Showcasing LGBTQ diversity before it was cool to do it, just your style, brave and true.
One Hour Photo. You were lonely. Did you feel a similar pain? I’m sorry if you did. No one should ever feel truly alone.
Many of the characters you played over the years seemed to echo your soul. I grew up watching you, and went to see your stand-up show in person. What a night that was. Just try and tell those jokes again the next day. As if. Pure comedic genius. One of a kind. No one did it like you did. No one ever will.
Intelligent, compassionate, sharp, strong, generous, and kind. I’m not the only one who thinks so. I’m just one of millions. What a legacy.
I will miss your gift of seamless improv, your humble generosity, your ridiculous repertoire of crazy voices, your versatile talent as a top notch performer, your honest and giving nature, and most of all your unique capability to move this world with your exhuberant madness.
My Captain, I wish you the eternal peace you couldn’t find in life.
Wherever you may be, may your magical spark forever ring free.



Posted in Hope, Love, Spirituality with tags , , , , , , on June 14, 2013 by TaijituMartini


“I see incredible beauty in humanity, only most of it is unfulfilled potential, hidden under the superficial”

~Danielle Mayeur~

Danielle Mayeur was a beautiful girl who died young, before she had a chance to truly live. She was twenty-five when she passed away of anorexia in 2001. Sexually assaulted at 17, she lost the will to eat and waited three long years on a waiting list before she was admitted to a day program for support. After only three months in the program, she was released only to find out there was no follow-up support available, mainly due to lack of funding. Her struggle was just too much to bear. Before her death, she had a vision to build compassionate services for those suffering with eating disorders. With her mothers dedication and a network of caring friends her vision was realized after her death. Today there’s a special place where hope and healing happen everyday. A place where there is no judgement, where there is constant support and people who selflessly dedicate their time and effort to make a difference in the lives of others. See, there is good in the world after all. When I read her story I was instantly compelled to be a part of this place. Maybe it was because she was an actress and I have always been a part of the theatre world. Maybe it was because I was sexually assaulted as a teenager and understood her pain. Maybe it was because my own past vices were drinking and drugs to cure that very pain, at one point rapidly heading towards the same fate myself. Maybe it was because I wanted to help those that couldn’t find the strength to help themselves. Maybe it was because over the years I managed to turn my own life around and now have a deep understanding of the immense power of healing. Maybe it was because I could lend a patient ear to those who needed to be heard. Maybe it was because I could use my passion for the written word to bring attention to the cause. Whatever it was, I reached out to offer my help and continue to be amazed at all the wondrous things that have unfolded since. I know I am connected to this special place for many reasons. I work there because it is a part of my legend, something I promised I would do once, a long time ago, as I fought desperately for my own life. Everything is connected, remember? Quantum connectivity and all that jazz. Back it up a bit. In 2005 I was 30 years old, and my brain was being savagely ravaged by viral encephalitis, and I was dying. Leave it up to me to be in the less than 1% of the population to get encephalitis from the West Nile Virus. West Nile Neuroinvasive Disease or WNND to be exact. I was leaving this earth, and I didn’t want to go. I had a lot more to do here. So I earnestly promised something to the other side, and lucky for me that day- They listened. That’s a hell of a tale, maybe I’ll tell you all about that little Near Death Experience in my next post…

I still have the chance to rant about all my absurd adventures. Danielle wasn’t so lucky. Thankfully her voice can continue with mine, and all the people who are connected to her story. I am somehow a minute part of her legend, and that entanglement feels like an extremely important role. She once got the lead in a festival play but was just too sick to perform.

This one’s for you Danielle.